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I really hate myself right now
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I really hate myself right now

I wish I was a stronger person if not for myself than for my 2 daughters. My husband left me over 3 months ago, he says I did nothing wrong just does not feel the same about me and thinks family life is not for him. I really miss him. I love him with all my heart and just feel so depressed without him. Maybe if I was a better wife he would have loved family life and not be gone. Maybe if I would not have naged him about going out with his friends it wouldnt have come to the point. The more I try to talk to him the more he pulls away. I only hear from him via email maybe once every 10 days. I do not want my kids to see me cry anymore. I try to hide it but sometimes even the littlest things like seeing a commercial reminds me of him and hurts. I feel so out of control I have no friends and only a sister to really talk to and she thinks I should have accepted it by now. Why must I be so weak, and why do I have to hurt while he is loving his life with out me and our kids? I have been praying every day for him to call or email that he misses us and come home but that email or phone call never comes. PLEASE help me pray that my marriage can be restored I promise I will do everything I can to make him happier next time. Thank you- Heather and Josh
08-23-2010 03:22 PM
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Father...please help Heather understand that this is not her fault...that when a man chooses to leave, there is little that can be done about it but pray. And how we pray makes a huge difference. God cannot reach us when we allow our emotions to rage and are in a totally distraught condition. I pray Father that you would lead this woman to counseling that she might regain her strength and be able to re-focus on her own needs and those of her daughters. Comfort her and help her to heal Father. Show her that you are with her...and Father more than anything help her to stop blaming herself for the poor choices that this husband made. They were his decisions...that show immaturity and shallowness in walking away from his children and wife...let Heather perceive it as the selfish act that it is! Father touch Josh...humble him down to the point that he comes to know that he needs a savior. Let him call out to the Lord Jesus to enter his heart that he might come to learn who he is in Christ and who he is to be as the spiritual head of his home. Father bring peace to this situation that Heather might be able to focus...and when she is ready...teach her how to pray for this man...not for him to come home now...as he is not ready and cannot do what it is that she needs from him...but to fall in love with Jesus...to see how his actions grieve God...to break his heart of stone over the abandoning of vows that were given, not just to this woman but to the Creator of the universe! Father lead, guide, comfort and heal...In Jesus name...Amen!
08-23-2010 04:00 PM
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Dear Lord please give Heather all the comfort, strength you can give her at this time, also wisdom from now on. Help her to take care of her daughters and herself for they need her now more than ever, for I'm sure they miss their father too. I'm in agreement with Adoring1 for it's only through prayers and you touching her husband's heart that he will decide to come back. Lord please let him see that his place is with his wife and daughters, soften his heart toward you and them. Depart from him any attractions out there that may be pulling him away from his family, and have him accept you as his Lord and Savior. May she make you the cornerstone of her life and cling to you with all her might Lord. Give her peace of mind not as the world gives us, but the peace that comes only from you. Protect her and the girls, also supply for all their needs as your perfect will is done in their lives, and her marriage situation. In Jesus Christ Precious Name I pray, and I thank you in advance Heavenly Father to whom all the Honor, the Glory, and the Power belongs, Amen! Warrior
Mathew 18:19 - 20
"Again, I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven. For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them.
Psalm 121
1- I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help.
2- My help cometh from the LORD, which made heaven and earth.
3- He will not suffer thy foot to be moved: he that keepeth thee will not slumber.
4- Behold, he that keepeth Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep.
5- The LORD is thy keeper: the LORD is thy shade upon thy right hand.
6- The sun shall not smite thee by day, nor the moon by night.
7- The LORD shall preserve thee from all evil: he shall preserve thy soul.
8- The LORD shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore.
08-23-2010 05:29 PM
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Lord I know that men do not like or respect a woman that is weak and throw's herself at him. Help this wife to demonstrate her independance and strength. I believe that if she shows that she can and will do it with or without him than maybe he will realize that he can no longer keep her as a victim. Men who leave their wives are not just unhappy. They are struggling and have inner issues that are painful. I pray that this woman will not take any blame for her husbands decisions. Let her work hard on making a life for herself and if he wishes to come back then he will have to win her heart back as well. Help make things right between them Lord and call this mans heart back to his family instead of his selfish desires. Help this woman to stand firm and hold fast. keep her from begging. Love is a gift not something we grovel for. She is worth loving and if he cannot see that, then he is not worth it, and it won't be possible for reconcillation withot the intervention of Jesus Christ. I invite you Lord to intervene and save this family from the hurt of divorce and separation. In Jesus name I pray.
08-23-2010 07:43 PM
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Heather,
I feel your pain! I am going through the same thing. my husband left almost 3 months ago and I have a 3 month old. I will pray for you privately. Stay strong. I know how hard it is. Keep the faith!
08-23-2010 08:06 PM
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Heather im so sorry that that is happening in you life. you dont deserve it. you are a beautiful and wonderful women and a princess in gods eyes. you did nothing wrong and nothing you could have done would have made your husband stay. all you can do now is( as hard as it is) be strong for you children and pray, pray, pray. that is ALL you can do sweetheart. hope this helped. ill be praying for you
08-23-2010 08:51 PM
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Dear Havenly Father Please answer this person prayer acord to your will and bless there life Lord and we give you all the priase honor and glory in all of this. IN JESUS NAME I PRAY AMEN

Sincerly: Steven Danielsen
John 14:14 If you ask Me anything in My name, I will do it.
08-23-2010 10:43 PM
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ive just prayed for you and your husband , first of all i want you to know that god loves you and he sees your tears and has everyone stored in a jar , he sees your pain and wants you to have a joyful life that's why jesus died, depression is a difficult thing my first advice would be get out of the house go the park with the kids or for a walk seriously!, withdraw from your husband wait for him to contact you, the elastic band theory! men like to chase let him chase you again meanwhile love yourself be the best you you can be put your make up on change your hair and let him remember the you he married love yourself!! your a child of god perfect in his image, let your children see a strong woman of god your a fighter honey and you know it this wont break you pick your self up grab gods hand and you will come through this! you will! love yourself god bless you rebecca xxx
08-24-2010 02:00 AM
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Dear Lord,please have mercy on Heather and her daughters.
In the Name of the Lord,right now I command to all the power of darkness and the curses to leave Heather and her daughters! Now!
I pray that Your will to be done in their lives.
You are the King of kings and Your Name is Wonderful.
Thank You my Lord

Warrior Blessed and holy are those who share in the first resurrection.For them the second death holds no power, but they will be priests of God and of Christ and will reign with him a thousand years.
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