Lord, it's been a while. I had Your word, i was a faithful church goer, tither, giver, or so i thought. Then You showed how sinful i was, how filthy this heart is before You. Please forgive me and cleanse through the blood of Your Son Jesus. i want to come back to You, to believe again in Your greatness, goodness, and love. Forgive the fear and shame of my sins, of pride, of unbelief and disobedience when You have given Your word to heed. Lord Jesus, hear i ask, the asking, seeking and knocking.

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God, I am tired of my life, myself. How selfish could one be? Please help break this chain, this prison one could make even for himself. It is not gifts or sacrifices You want, but our love and obedience. Please stop me going back and forth, but to be faithful in truth. Help me break free through Jesus alone. You said if we love, we will keep Your commands. help us keep them whatever the cost, not insist on our ways which were never right before You. Help us be a blessing to others again, not a burden.

Marian, just call the name of our Lord Jesus as many times as you want. His Spirit is inside of you and He knows everything what you are going through. JESUS, JESUS, JESUS.

God, forgive us when we grieve Your Spirit. Please cleanse this temple that You may dwell in a clean heart and stay.

Without faith, how can I see You, Lord? I ask for faith again, that comes from You alone.