I just want to feel again, something , anything but this . It's hard trying to pray because i feel like i disappointed god and I don't deserve his forgiveness for everything I've done. It's hard to tell people you love because they don't understand

Read Psalm 51 as a prayer to God from you and really repent of your sins. Repenting means never to look back and do them again, with God's help you can keep on moving forward and become a new creation in Him.
Lord give this person the forgiveness they are looking for. Give them a sign of hope that you have heard them and have forgiven them. Help them to move on with your help and to forgive them self as they accept your forgiveness. Bring them your peace, comfort, strength to come to your path and stay in it, also let them feel your love for them. May they look only for your approval and not of others for none are perfect and we are all corrupt, only through you can we be cleanse from our sins. I pray in the mighty name of Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior. Amen!

Lord, you understand how this one feels and what they are going through... Please be with them and show them they are loved and forgiven in your name Jesus I pray. Amen

In Jesus Name I decree and declare 1 John 3:8 b) over this person. In Jesus Name I decree and declare "The Son of God came to destroy the works of the devil" over this person. In Jesus Name I decree and declare Zechariah 4:7 agaisnt any mountain which is agaisnt this person.

Lord's children are called kings first in Revelation 1:6 KJV. Is important to use authority and office of the king in spiritual realm. Also according with Exodus 20:5 is important to be free from any legal right from any unclean spirit.
In Jesus Name I decree and declare Exodus 14:14 and Deuteronomy 28:6-8 and 1 Chronicles 4:10 and Psalms 1:3 and Psalms 5:12 and Psalms 18:29 and Psalms 18:39 and Psalms 23 and Psalms 91 and Psalms 103:3 and Psalms 107:20 and Psalms 118:17 and Psalms 121:2 and 1 Peter 2:24 and Isaiah 54:17 and Ephesians 3:20 and Romans 8:37 and Philippians 4:13 and Luke 18:27 and Jeremiah 29:11 and 2 Samuel 22:33 and John 16:24 and according with Lord's will over this person.
Thank You Lord