i am sorry, call me a bad Christian , call me someone who does not have faith but i am so lost and i am so discouraged right now, i have so much love to give and i have been praying for most of my adult life for marriage and i had a relationship that just ended where i thought she was the one and i was looking at rings and then it ended so i am praying for a godly woman to love and to date and to marry

i know waiting is sometimes hard and you need to trust in God however i am not handling this well and i am losing faith as it seems every day that goes by my heart closes more and more and i do not want to do that. i want to love a woman and God with all my heart!


please pray that God will intervine sooner rather than later not my will but his will to be done. i have a vision of love in my life so please pray that God will help me to find her as i know she is out there somewhere

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Its me again the person who posted i forgot to mention that i never had a relationship like this before where i thought i was going to marry someone and also loving someone with all my heart

i have a relationship with God and Jesus and he has brought me through some really tough times before and i know he is with me. i just cannot see the trees through the forest and i feel like i am lost in a maze and i am in panic mode to get out and i crying out to the lord to help me find a way out but i know i need to breath and stand still and know that God has me but i feel like there is a fire coming near me and i do not want to be burnt and that is why i am running scared. i am sorry if my faith is not strong as some of yours but i am just trying to be honest of where i am and i am trying i really truly am trying to let go and let god but it is so hard to know if am doing the right thing and if i am in the will of lord

i cried out to god on my knees and i surrender everything to him

i am praying for you and all of those who are in the same boat as you - you are not alone God is with you