My daughter has done well in school past few years. Our home life not good. I know it's probably her fault she failed English past year and dad signed her up for online summer class and he said about 2 weeks ago there was an issue with an assignment or assignments (?) missing so she may not pass classes and or move on to 11 the grade or maybe not graduate in 2020. He said he had to call someone for information but as of yesterday he said he still hadn't gotten Information. My daughter seems happy picking out clothes for school tomorrow which is first day. Everything is online: schedule, grades, homework etc. She said she doesn't have all her classes online for this coming year and I'm wondering if the summer class is why. I'm nervous for her. I know it's probably her fault if she didn't read or study much, don't know if it's difficult vfor her or not but I'm praying she. Assed class to move on and got credit toward graduation. If she goes to school tomorrow and they tell her she failed I'm gonna be so dad for her and depressed. Afraid how it will affect her. I mean I want her to be prepared and able to move on to higher levels and not fail or not know what's she's doing but repeating a grade is humiliating for kids especially in high school.
Also, my husband who lives next door with girlfriend and her adult kids was bread winner and me part time job, homemaker and he hasn't paid mortgage since January 2018, letter from law firm about intent to foreclose and accelerate loan, owes almost $6000 now, more next month. I'm scared. Don't want to be homeless and him get custody vof our 2 kids. He doesn't even spend much time with them on his days off, with his girlfriend or meetings. His house is literally full with people too. I have no career and also unemployed, couldn't even get a job at local convenience store , wanna try Walmart again but no calls and obviously hard to live on that, would need child support too. My mom lives with us and buys groceries, obviously causes resentment with her. Can't move without her, can't afford place by myself. Need school in near future to get training and hopefully not much more bit more an hour, need job that works around school too not shift work or daylight only . I have a used car mom bought,bits in her name and husband's name, he pays insurance to get around so I also need prayers it keeps running safely and legally for a few more years till hopefully I can go and finish training and make more money vif hired. I'm not young anymore either. My friend wants vmecto try to apply where she works but it's home care and I would have to drive house to house neighborhoods, no gas mileage given and also shop for people, I don't want to put that wear and tear in car plus no benefits whatsoever unless full time but can't get full time so friend is angry with me and tgeows it up in my face says I won't take help. I don't feel good about that line of work and traveling, am I wrong??? Also her husband has a rental in a neighborhood that's not around here, bad area than this one, he also moved his stuff out of her house into it so I don't know if he's planning to live there and it's not for kids only me and mom if I don't get kids and I told my friend my mom would never move there and she would move into senior high rise if that's the case and my friend got insulted and said "you may be homeless but won't take place offered". I told her I can't afford to rent a house, mom won't move there and it's far away from here and everything, and I want my kids plus different school district. She got mad. She offers advice but it's not good for my life and situation. Am I wrong???!! Am I being foolish because I really want to stay around this area because vof kids and also near stores, maybe a job? Of course vi don't want to be homeless either. I don't know also if my mom is trying vto jump ship and move into senior housing which makes me feel bad like a leech but I honestly need help and she only person to help at least without a career I need badly. No one is also encouraging me to go to school because they want me to get a job and help out now but obviously without some college or vocational training I won't make a liveable wage in future when my mom and husband are dead and me and husband hopefully divorced soon it's been over 4 years since he filed. He's been keeping utilities on and mortgage in past. I need to pay bills.
Also I took my friend to local hospital about month ago for hysterectomy, her husband didn't, he was at home packing most of his stuff to other house he owns and now she needs an operation for endometriosis and surgeon wants it done at a hospital about 45/60 minutes away, never driven there, only drive local in my used car and also a wimp driver but I don't want to put wear and tear in my car unless maybe I have to to go to Community College in another county that has good culinary program since local community college doesn't and even that worries me. At first when she mentioned me as a back up driver if husband cwontvtake her I ignored question, text, then told her kids have school, I don't have gas money etc but she got mad and asked me if I could drive her like before. I told her I don't drive that far and don't know where it is and maybe she should tell doctor she can't go that far away and he could do operation at local hospital or refer her to local doctor, but she got angry and offended and said her old lady friend "was sticking by her"and she hopes I never have a health problem or I don't become homeless since I won't take her help she offered or her advice and that I never really wanted to take her to her last operation at the local hospital. I didn't ask her for gas money to take her, she didn't offer and I will up around 3 am to dress and pick her and her senior female friend up and wait in hospital for 9/10 hours. If this operation was local I would take her if her husband bails. But distant place with my car and driving skills and scared I won't. She knew this before casking because vshe told me she talked to pastor, probably asked for ride or advice and he must have mentioned me taking her because she told him I don't drive far away, downtown, parkways etc but she still asked me and acted surprised and offended when I politely said no. She could tell doctor it's too far. Am I wrong? I don't mean to be a cold person. Prayers things get better for me and friend and she gets better for her. Prayers things work out with my house, somehow his and pays it, makes payment agreement with mortgage company and we can stay another few years till kids out if school or God provides a apartment for us that isn't that bad that we can afford and get into with income and bad credit in school district plus I can park the car, apartment and parking bad in most parts of this town. We live in area that's better and lots of onstreet parking. Not bumper to bumper, crime isn't as bad. My husband has been going to casino past year and yesterday saw on phone app (he installed to keep eye in kids whereabouts) he was also at racetrack with his girlfriend. I know I can't pray he keeps gambling but it's hard because I know he doesn't have money from job or no savings to pay $6000 to mortgage so I hope he wins big which is sad. Prayers I get job soon and also clothes, shirt to work in and it fits, I've gained weight past years at home, alot of weight to the point I worry about jobs I apply to to wear a tshirt or polo uniform to low wage jobs, I feel embarrassed about how I look and working minimum vwsge at my age with high school ppeers having real careers. I know I can't be proud though because godt won't bless me and I don't have a choice unless I go back to school somehow, someway. Don't know if I can get financial aid while still married. My life is a major mess. Don't know how to untangle it. Prayers glfor my children things look bad for their future too. My son is still sleeping now at 1:45, won't wake up and he has first day of school tomorrow, needs to sleep early, wake early. He's difficult. No way without a miracle he's going to bed at 9 or 10 tonight. His dad was supposed to take him for haircut for school, I have no money, can't handle his unpredictable behavior, last time he hated cut, cried, wouldn't get out of salon chair for about 15 minutes. His fldad came home around 4 am next door and supposed to take for hair cut around 1:00, it's 1:46 now probably has to work too at 5, our daughter works at 5, same place.
