Never have I felt like I belong in this family. No matter how hard I try I can't seem to "fit in". Whenever there's a happy moment in my life I can't help but think it won't last for long. I always try to please my parents, I don't party or use drugs, I never stay out late, and yet my parents don't seem to notice that I do this for them. My sisters are the opposite of me, they can't be without a boyfriend, they can't be without their friends, they have a bond with each other and I feel so left out. Whenever I come home from work or school they're shut away and don't bother to say a simple hello. It hurts that my little sister looks up to the eldest and that my older sister can't grow up. I dislike that she influences the younger in her use of language, encourages her to have relationships, basically wanting to mold her into a version of herself.

It doesn't help the least bit that I am the type of person who can't forgive. I have a horrible temper and I honestly admit it. I wish I can say my problem lies only on them...that they are at fault for making me feel like an outsider. It's not this way. I hate myself for getting mad at them every day, I hate how I tire of people easily. I hate how I get annoyed of every little thing. I try to control my temper but instead of doing so I put on a cold exterior and confront them with everything. I repeatedly tell myself I don't care, that it's okay and I don't need them. To them I am heartless, they say they wonder if I even have a heart. I didn't cry when my aunt passed away, I hide all signs of weakness... I never show how much they hurt me by saying these things to me and instead I act ,like that im okay with it.

Right now I feel worthless, I wish God should never have allowed me to be here. Why can't I have the bubbly personalities of my sisters and instead cursed me with this serious one? Sometimes I wish i could be like them- to have my world revolve around friends and gossip. I feel as though they see me as lame for not caring about friends or having relationships.

I pray to God to give me the knowledge i need to get my degree as soon as I can so I can leave this house. They dont include me in anything so they won't care if I'm gone. Sometimes I think if i rebel against my parents they'll start to notice me. It's stupid and childish thinking I know, but I need to get this out. I am a person who can achieve anything I put my mind into with the help of God ofcourse, and I can't wait til the day arrives when I have completed my education. I won't be like my older sister who chose people over eduication. I will become someone who my parents will recognize and be proud of.

I do love God- I know he is the only one who can save me from myself. I realize my way of thinking will not bring me happiness nor relief, but when I finally manage to find a sliver of hope I manage to put up my walls and shield myself again. I'm tired of being alone. Will God even hear my prayers when I hold grudges towards my family?

Child remember God Loves you, and try to please God not them. I know exactly how you feel, for I too have lived all my life feeling that way. For my mother always told me she didn't love me, that I was not her child, yet I'm the split image of her. My sister has always been the favorite one, while she will curse my mother to her face, even slapped her when she was a teenager. My mother all she would do was cried, and then make my sister her favorite dinner. All I ever did one time was not answer my mother, because I was so angry I didn't trust myself to respect her at that moment. She slapped me so hard that for days I had a headache. I have always been called by my sister Cinderella and her slave, for I was the only one in the family that was forced to do the housework and cooking by the time I became a teenager. I can tell you horrors that I've lived through because of my mother and sister. My father was always too busy working, and after dinner doing work for the church. So he neglected me even though he knew my mother had hurt me so badly when I was only three yrs old, that his mother took me to live with her. I had to come to live back with my parents only, because my paternal grandmother got sick and passed away. I was six yrs old at that time, since then my life with my family has been hell. Today I'm an old lady, but I look back and know it's only because of my love for God and his Love for me that I am here alive, and able to tell you to hang in there. I know it hurts, but don't try to look at them, only concentrate on pleasing God, and he will help you through it all. I ended having a good family of my own, and I try to love my children all the same. For I know how it feels when one child is loved more than the other. Today my sister with the help of my mother who turned all the inheritance my father left us to her, is very well off, but not happy at all. While I have been in lots of needs through the years since they got the inheritance, they turned their backs on me. Only God has come through for me, and has given me all I needed. Today
I too have my own house with God's help, and not from stealing from others. Today I am happy, not miserable like I see my mother and sister are, and always fighting with each other. I live far enough so I don't have to be in the middle of all that goes on there, and I have God's peace within me. So cling to God for your help and love Child and he will see you through it all, in the end he will bless you more than anything they can ever have. In your old age you will be able to look back and see like I do now, how much God loves you, and has blessed you.

Lord give this Child your peace and strength to help him/her through the hurt and rejection from their loved ones. Send people his/her way who will show this Child of yours your love through them, as you have done for me throughout my life. May he/she some day have their own family, and not continue that curse into their own family, but break it once and for all in Jesus name. Allow him/her to feel your love for him/her, and that you are pleased that he/her is not following the bad example of the sisters.
Lord I also pray you will touch the parents of this Child and open their eyes to see the hurt they are causing him/her. Have your perfect will be done in this family and this Child who is hurting so much. Keep your guardian angels around him/her, and guide their steps at all times to the right path. I pray this in Jesus precious name amen.

Stop dwelling on the negatives, change your thoughts. Those thoughts are not from God. No matter how negative your situation is change it to a positive and know that our Father already know what you are going through. You have unforgiveness spirit and you must forgive anyone who has done you wrong or our Father will not forgive you judgment time. You are waiting on God but God is waiting on you.

Dear Lord,please have mercy on this family and their home.
In the Name of Jesus,right now I command to all the powers of darkness and the curses to leave this family and their home! Now!
I pray that Your will to be done in their lives.
You are the King of kings and Your Name is Wonderful.
Thank You my Lord