Lord, God I desperately need answers and clarifications please please please. I trust you with my heart, what I saw in the very early morning hurts me and upsets very very much. Was my sacrifice and insults so worthless in your eyes? Am I exaggerating? Am I misinterpreting what I saw or was it a test or preparation? It was very scary and hurts very very much?


Does the way I feel and what I have endured so worthless to you to that point? Even at that I have to live it out with a dagger in my heart is that what you want for me? Is that why I am always alone and invisible? Please forgive me if I am wrong and please shed some light in all this. It hurts so so so so so so so so so so very bad. I just would like to think that not all aspects and corners of my life has to be a painful humiliating sacrifice. What exactly am I paying for. I waited and waited and waited my own mother called me a whore how much more to want me to take? Please say it ain't so God please say that I misinterpret this one too.


I trust you with the most intimate parts and thoughts of my life please talk to me. Please don't let me live with empty promises and when I do see some hint of them they have too be a painful settling instead of a glorious deliverance or the recompense that you promised me. Look at what my father and brothers did to me. Do you remember how I felt after Luna and Elsie said what they said and now I am living being the last piece of garbage to get a chance.


I love you and I chose you, I waited for you and I am still paying for something I did not do with that type of burdensome family, why would you want that for me? Please deliver me, I never want to feel that way ever again. Please deliver me for good for something worth waiting for that is worth the sacrifice, not that though I know that the possibility is there but does the way that I feel mean anything to you. Does the way I feel mean anything to you oh God. Does my marriage arrangement have to be a painful sacrifice too? Whatever I did please forgive me because you said "and ye shall receive" not "ye shall receive pain and additional insults and burden". You came to deliver and I have faith and confidence in your grace please make this OK because I am not OK with this why would it hurt so bad.


I just want something in life that is for me and me alone with you sacrificing my heart for it over and over and over. If this is so it would be devastating. Look who I live with despite her support in my sickness I did nothing to deserve any of it and I am still burden to still take it like I am a worthless pile of **** who does not deserve a life, love,home of her own. Do I always have to be the last garbage that comes after everybody else?

Please please shed some light on this Lord please explain please make make perfect sense. Please make make perfect sense. Unless I am wrong and crazy. I am not a selfish person but I am not a piece of brick either. I appreciate that you've bless me with so much and I love you for it. However, please please don't make live with the one thing that I have always wanted to turn out to be a settling condemnation. Remember, I never got a chance I was suffering and paying for things I did not do or deserve when everybody else was enjoy their lives and their youths please don't do this to my heart please that you are above and beyond that.

Remember, Lord, remember, I waited, I trust you with my heart which is dear to me. I pray that a dagger and settling insults after all of that I endured with these selfish monsters is what I deserve.

In Jesus' name - Amen

Father, in the name of our Lord Jesus, I lift up Guest's prayer request to you today and ask You to leave Your peace with her today and everyday of her life.
Father, there is a part of her life that feels punishing and unfair and seems to be negative forces working against Guest and she can’t stop it or make it go away. She feels angry and resentful because it appears You are ignoring her calls for help or have turned Your back on her which is not true according to your Word. Let her know Father that she cannot be peaceful and angry at the same time. When she choose to feel angry, she is blocing her awareness of You and she cannot hear Your guidance on how to end the pain. Lord, let her know that she is not required to have perfect thoughts, her part is to not hold on to the thoughts that are upsetting her. Help her Lord, to release her anger and resentment and help her choose peace instead. Help her to release all her needs to You, so she can starts receiving the joy, happiness, health and abundance that is Your will for her. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.

Heavenly LORD, You have come to save not condemn. I lift this woman up to You and ask You to deliver her from torment and condemnation. Show her who she is in You, she is loved with the greatest love. Take all the wrong that is going on in her life and deliver her from it, may You restore her trust and hope and change her life for the better. Fill her heart with peace and help her, In Jesus Name, Amen

Thank you for praying for me. By evening time though not resolved yet, I just felt a little better. Looks like God heard you on my behalf.

God Bless, I love you in Christ. I wish you well in all that you do. Keep it up. When strangers do that for people like me it makes me love God even more. By the way don't get comfortable the events of Revelation have started I don't think that we have more than about 25 years before the return of Christ see you in heaven.

(06-26-2012 10:47 AM)Dottie2012 Wrote:  Father, in the name of our Lord Jesus, I lift up Guest's prayer request to you today and ask You to leave Your peace with her today and everyday of her life.
Father, there is a part of her life that feels punishing and unfair and seems to be negative forces working against Guest and she can’t stop it or make it go away. She feels angry and resentful because it appears You are ignoring her calls for help or have turned Your back on her which is not true according to your Word. Let her know Father that she cannot be peaceful and angry at the same time. When she choose to feel angry, she is blocing her awareness of You and she cannot hear Your guidance on how to end the pain. Lord, let her know that she is not required to have perfect thoughts, her part is to not hold on to the thoughts that are upsetting her. Help her Lord, to release her anger and resentment and help her choose peace instead. Help her to release all her needs to You, so she can starts receiving the joy, happiness, health and abundance that is Your will for her. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.

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Thank you for praying for me. By evening time though not resolved yet, I just felt a little better. Looks like God heard you on my behalf.

God Bless, I love you in Christ. I wish you well in all that you do. Keep it up. When strangers do that for people like me it makes me love God even more. By the way don't get comfortable the events of Revelation have started I don't think that we have more than about 25 years before the return of Christ see you in heaven.

(06-26-2012 11:59 AM)stephie77 Wrote:  Heavenly LORD, You have come to save not condemn. I lift this woman up to You and ask You to deliver her from torment and condemnation. Show her who she is in You, she is loved with the greatest love. Take all the wrong that is going on in her life and deliver her from it, may You restore her trust and hope and change her life for the better. Fill her heart with peace and help her, In Jesus Name, Amen

In Jesus Name i command that all powers of darkness and curses to leave this person and their home ! Now !
I pray that Lord's will be done in their life. Amen
Psalms 107:20 Amen
Isaiah 53:5 Amen