Hello.

I don't do this much, and I'm sorry for just jumping in here with this, but I can't just keep this to myself.

I believe I have depression. How long, I don't know. I've always had issues with self-image. Always trying to improve myself. Always trying to be as good as I can. Always trying to put God first. Sinning, like everyone else, of course, but always desiring forgiveness and help to do better next time.

Only none of that matters.

My issues with self-image have gone down a really steep hill. I have two brothers, both close to my age. The oldest has always been the leader; the middle of us, the adventurer; while I, being the youngest, took up creativity and general intelligence. That's how it's been since the three of us were kids, but now... now I feel dumb. The oldest of us works in space; the middle of us oversees a significant part of a large summer camp for kids, and I... live with our parents. With no college education. No skills to speak of. No real friends to see. I've become the dumb one, and even the middle of we brothers is smarter than I am, and he didn't go to college, either.

As for personal skills (you know, that one weird thing you tend to be best at among those you know), I have none besides being really good at video games. Only now, to add insult to injury, someone I know who's 6 years younger than I am has taken that spot. That leaves me with nothing. No good job. No good opportunities. Not even one weird skill that can give me a smile every now and then.

I've always been a Christian. Always believed in God as long as I can remember. Read the Bible a lot. Taken part in studies. Served where I can. But I feel ignored by God. I lift up my sorrows, but nothing happens. I ask for help, none arrives. I ask forgiveness for whatever sins I commit, I feel like I am punished still. Cast in the corner to be addressed last, like I am in everything else in life. With nothing to provide even token comfort.

In short, I feel alone. Deeply, depressingly, alone. I don't know what to do anymore. I know it's selfish, but could I get some prayers sent my way? I believe I am in need of them.

Dear Timothy,
Prayers for you tonight. God works in mysterious ways, do not be discouraged, continue to reach out to God. He has bigger plans fro you that you probably could not comprehend. Try this... give of yourself, just little things: a smile to a stranger, a kind word , open a door for someone , one thing leads to another. depression can be scary and very difficult I know, but you can get through this. One good thing leads to another...

Dear Heavenly father, watch over Timothy and show him the possibilities before him. Comfort him and bless him dear lord. Amen.

Dear guest,

I have given myself again and again and again. I open doors for people, I say kind words, but that does nothing. Those gestures don't help. They are meaningless to me. A numb motion.

I have constantly turned to prayer for answers, only to have the exact thing I request to help me, happen to someone I know instead. Almost without fail. I feel completely ignored. I am really sick of it.

Thank you for your prayers, anyway.

Timothy

It is not selfish of you to ask for prayer- we need prayer from each other so don't feel guilty about this. Asking for prayer is part of the Christian life. You are never alone-above all you have Jesus.
I pray that this feeling in you will go- I also live with these feelings -and I ask for prayer- perhaps it goes right back to childhood I do not know. Sometimes our weaknesses and brokeness can be used because when we share the gospel with others we can sense others pain more and they can relate to us because we identify with them- and they can trust us more as we share about Jesus. I often feel inadequate compared to other Christians- I am however reminded that we are indeed inadequate- Its Jesus that is in us - He is perfect and it is in weakness that we are strong - because He is our strength. I do not know the exact reason for your depression - I am just sharing what helps me at times - but I often feel like you.
Lord please comfort Timothy as he feels like this- free him from this tendency to compare himself to others- Lord You can take his brokeness and make him whole- reveal Your will to him and guide him to the right people- you can also heal through others - so Lord You know what the source of this problem is- guide him if necessary to the right professional -perhaps doctor. You fight our battles - You know exactly what is wrong. Fight this for Timothy and guide him to play his part and guide those who will help him into his life. Bless him also with the right friendships and send skills, and work into his life. Reveal his talents and gifts to him- and may he enjoy these blessings. I ask in the wonderful name of Jesus- the great healer.

Timothy, give it all to Jesus and get more into his word, also listen to Christian music. Cry your heart out if you have to the Lord as you make him your all. He will hear you and give you his peace and joy that surpasses all understanding. He is so loving to us who love him and trust in him, even when we don't see anything happening at the moment, keep trusting in him. Soon in the near future you will see the light of God working in your life so clearly, and will realize God has been there by your side all along.
Remember you are still young and it's never too late to keep on learning. Go back to school, even if you have to get some remedial courses to get up to date. But stop with those videos games, all they have done is ruined people's life and even marriages. Get a life Timothy by getting a part time job, even if it is in fast food place cleaning tables, if you have to, but get out of the house, and start to be a responsible person. Avoid bad company at all cost for it will be worse for you if don't.
Lord help Timothy to realize you gave us a life to enjoy, but enjoyment is not all in life. We have to be creative in finding what it is you want from us. For you have a plan for each one of us, including him, but sometimes we allow the enemy to blind us with distractions such as those videos games and other things in life. Let him see there is a wonderful world out there, and help him to come out of that hole he has buried himself into. Guide him to where you want him to be in this life, and help him to stop wasting it away before it's too late for him. I pray in Jesus precious name amen.

Dear guest,

I was with you until you started making assumptions about me and saying I've buried myself into a hole. I actually do have a job, it's just not one which I see getting me to my goals, hence why I said "no good job". And I do get out of the house, to see friends, go to church, go out with the family to eat, ect. Playing one game for an hour a day or every other day is the same thing as sitting down in the living room and watching one show with the family. I appreciate your well-meaning prayer, but do not judge me based on a single thing I mentioned.

Do not give up Timothy for God has a word for you today.
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Lord direct Timothy in the path you want him to go. Depart from him all depression as you help him find your peace from above. I pray in Jesus name amen.

Thank you, Guest. I appreciate yours, and all the other prayers in this thread, sent my way. I send my own to you all.

One night I dreamed a dream.
As I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
One belonging to me and one to my Lord.
After the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that at many times along the path of my life,
especially at the very lowest and saddest times,
there was only one set of footprints.
This really troubled me, so I asked the Lord about it.
"Lord, you said once I decided to follow you,
You'd walk with me all the way.
But I noticed that during the saddest and most troublesome times of my life,
there was only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why, when I needed You the most, You would leave me."
He whispered, "My precious child, I love you and will never leave you
Never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you saw only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you."

Hello Timothy.

In Jesus Name I pray mercy, grace, favor over Timothy. In Jesus Name I decree and declare Psalms 118:25 and abundantly life over Timothy. In Jesus Name I decree and declare what is impossible with people is possible with God over Timothy.
In Jesus Name I decree and declare 1 John 3:8 b) over Timothy. In Jesus Name I decree and declare "The Son of God came to destroy the works of the devil" over Timothy. In Jesus Name I decree and declare Zechariah 4:7 agaisnt any mountain which is agaisnt Timothy.

Lord's children are called kings first in Revelation 1:6 KJV. Is important to use authority and office of the king in spiritual realm. Also according with Exodus 20:5 is important to be free from any legal right from any unclean spirit.
In Jesus Name I decree and declare Exodus 14:14 and Deuteronomy 28:6-8 and 1 Chronicles 4:10 and Psalms 1:3 and Psalms 5:12 and Psalms 18:29 and Psalms 18:39 and Psalms 23 and Psalms 91 and Psalms 103:3 and Psalms 107:20 and Psalms 118:17 and Psalms 121:2 and 1 Peter 2:24 and Isaiah 54:17 and Ephesians 3:20 and Romans 8:37 and Philippians 4:13 and Luke 18:27 and Jeremiah 29:11 and 2 Samuel 22:33 and John 16:24 and according with Lord's will over Timothy.
Thank You Lord