Thank you all for your prayers. They mean so much to me. I am told that C is in very good place Spiritually and feels at great peace at the moment. He reports to be moving forward in life and is feeling good. He is sober again which is GREAT. BUT.....he has told my friends that he cant be in a relationship at the moment and that I must move on. He says I am special and he will always love me, but then says to my friends, he cant love me but cares for me? He is full of conflicting stuff. Anyway - at first I was angry - angry that after all I have LOVED him unconditionally, I have walked with him and encouraged him when he was in the darkest of places, how I supported him in every way he needed and embraced his children etc he walks and says he is "good now" but then God convicted me and said "Is this not what you have been praying for? Have you not been praying for his total healing" so I immediately confessed and praised him for working so powerfully in C's life and changing him as I know we could not survive a reconciliation unless he has changed. So praise God for that revelation to me and yes, I will give praise and thanks. I just struggle with C believing he has to be apart from me as that is what God has told him, and my believing God will bring us back together again in a Godly relationship that is whole and good. I texted him for Easter - no response. I have just received too many signs in this regard and continue to get such...so I dont know why C believes the opposite - but unregistered, you are right - HIS ways are mysterious and who am I to challenge them. I pray for patience while I wait and pray the same prayer are you. My faith is however being stretched - and I cling to it and ask you all to pray for me for patience while I wait. AMEN.