Firstly, i KNOW, I know the deep pit of depression when no answer is forthcoming in our own hands and we turn to God, and yet the answer still doesn't come. I pray that for you it does or has. For me, i find myself at a crossroads, i pray but it is not answered, i ask why and the answers are, it is not gods will, god has better things for you, you must forgive, you must BE forgiven, you must believe it done, you must ask often, you must be fully faithfull, you must........on and on and truly, no man can be good enough to warrant an answer, even Jesus displayed a doubt for a moment, and he had known God for millions of years if not more, the saints, they walked with him and were given power by him. Me i ask one thing, the return of a friend, i professed a love for them and that destroyed a friendship but i am willing to be only a friend, as their presence in my life is enough. Why must God refuse that? What can i do? I would do anything for it to be fixed and maybe he will, but not yet, well my faith flips back and forth in my time of heartache and loneliness, and no, findin others is not good enough, it must be this person, but i wait and just beg of the Lord Jesus and the Almighty to hasten a response, even a no, but told in a dream or a way i can recognise as a clear sign, and they know what would do it for me, i speak often enough to them, so any damascus event would do, but i get nothing. I beg closer relations with the lord at least then i could relinquish my selfish prayer knowing indeed he must have a better plan but with a wall of silence what do i do?