I had an affair I was made to feel worthless by my prevouis partner.,,I went with this new guy and got pregnant and had my daughter called faith,,In the end of all this madness , my 3 sons didnt want to live with me and a while later my dad died while I was carrying my daughter.You see I lost my home , I lost the boys fathers trust and my dad dying ..Why is it I can forgive people and they cant forgive me..My life is so stressfull and I know behind my back people think im a bad parent as they see a once love struck woman who gave up her boys for a man . Im really hurting my heart aches I pray for forgiveness ,,if people knew me I know im a good person, I know I have done wrong an I know im not judgemental. Please pray for me I am tired, I feel lonley no convidence , I just want too be out this storm that iv been in for 4 years now.I have also started to drink my job is stressfull..and is smoking again and thought of suicide as I feel worthless, iv often prayed for god not to let me wake up before i go asleep at night . please pray for me and this little girl called claudia she is dying of cancer ,and pray for michelles family who have buried a 3 year old boy this year thankyou