RE: Please help me Lord, I am tired
im 31yrs old, married but got seperated 8yrs ago. i have two kids. my ex husband go to new york since 2005 until now 2013 and already has someone there. i dont know if hes coming back, maybe he'll be back here in the philippines for hes children but not for me. I dont experienced being his wife in our 5yrs stay as a couple. 2009 i met someone from our class during my review in one of the engineering university in manila. we became friends at first, and eventually we became boyfriends and girlfriends. i give myself another chance to fall in love again and to be loved in return. at first, he dont know anything about my situation because im not sure if hes the one for me, if he is really serious about us. 2months after i decided to be his gf before i told him about my two kids and failed relationship with my ex husband. he accepted everything about me. but we have a big problem, his family. we try to cover things about me having that kind of situation because he knows hes family and definitely their not going to allow us to continue our relationship, in the first place they dont like me always compare me to his ex gf. After 1yr of hiding, i force him to tell his family and face the consequences of our actions. Unfortunately,his family wants him to leave me and find another one who's much more better for me. but we stay for 3 yrs. in that span of time, i know that he fights for me. we got so many problems but we are happy. i know his friends and although there are times he so stubborn, we fight, we have arguments, the love within us make us ok. until all just fades away, i know when i get angry, i talk to him like i dont love him, and care not much about him, i just want to teach him lessons that turn out to pull us away from each other. he realize that were better off us friends, because ive caused him and his family so much damage and pain. Hes gone and im alone. but thank God i have my children and family. i love him so much that ive never felt this with my ex husband because my ex husband just never stop from hurting me emotionally, ive never felt being loved by my ex husband. primarly because he want someone else not me, we just have kids and unplanned marriage. but this person my ex boyfriend gives me the affection i needed to regained what ive lost from my past.
Lord God Jesus, please forgive me for my sins. Im not worthy of your mercy but i know and believe in you that your love for us well renewed us from all our wrong doings. Please help me to be prepared in all the uncertainty that might go on our way. Please strengthen me in my downiest time. im so desperate and most need of your mercy now. just make control of my life. im so tired of begging for attention in others. my two failed relationsjips really put me in to the test. they left me because merely, im not worthy and they see something is wrong with me, i hope God that time flies away so fast that i get recover all the misery im undergoing right now. I know God that you know everything im going thru, have mercy on my oh my God. Please send forth your love. make me invulnerable and complete so when the time comes that there is someone out there willing to love me and fight for me, willing to stand for me, im ready to make him happy and contented that hes not able to regret the decision of loving me. I know God this is not my time for love since my ex boyfriend for gone a month for now. i dont know if he still wants me back and if he wants to give our relationship another shot. Im hoping but im not expecting. im now suffering for all the wrong doings ive done and im so sorry. i just hope that hed forgive me. but if ever that he decided to take another course and forget me, My prayers are with him. it hurts so bad but i understand. I just hope and prayed that there is someone out there who could make me forget all the painful things that happened in my life. May all of this pain makes me strong in faitj with you my God, my Jesus. i will not quit, i will not stop. make control of my life. Heal me, Strengthen me, Touch my Life Lord Jesus. I love you till forever. hear my prayers Lord. Give me a chance to correct my faults with my ex boyfriend. after that im ok. Forgive me Lord please. Please Lord Hear me, hear my prayers. More blessings to me and my family and also good health. Thank You Lord Jesus. I know you will grant my prayers and petitions. I trust in you, I believe in ou. I love you Lord Jesus. Thank you so much
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