My life is crazy, I'm unemployed, not even minimum wage job and my mom lives with me and pays for groceries, husband lives next door but still pays or at least keeps the utilities on for me, mom and kids, we get shut offs at least every other month for water and electric bill, by a miracle these utilities usually are still on or only get water turned off maybe a day, I worry every month or two about power getting shut off. I am driving a used car my mother bought so we could get around but its starting to slow down and we've had it almost 2 years so I dont know how much longer it will go, I cant afford a car, no money to buy another for my mom but I cant afford not to have a car around here, we grocery shop every week and have heavy bags, pick daughter up from school club every week or more etc but I only apply for jobs around here and try to stay on a busline which is limiting and no degree or trade also which is also limiting with unskilled labor type jobs also I dont get many calls for interviews and havent been hired for few interviews I have had past year. I tried calling places but no manager called me back. I'm getting scared and depressed about being at home and worried about how I will make it in future, my husband is only paying bills for kid's sake not mine and that is in lieu of court ordered child support. I hate to deal with him but dont know if child support would be enough to pay the mortgage and bills, probably not and with no job I feel trapped. I wish I knew what I could do as far as school is concerned and be able to get financial aid while still married and used this time that husband is paying bills to go back to school before it is too late an get a job that I could actually live on, I'm not an extravagant spending person and dont buy designer clothers or diamonds etc but low pay or minimum wage I dont see how I could live on that in the future. My ex friend said I have a "nice racket going on" with mom and husband but I dont feel like I am lucky with them paying for things now because it's not going to stay this way in future and my mother is 75 so she could die tomorrow or husband could stop paying bills tomorrow or lose his job etc and there is obvious resentment on his part. I dont like living like this but I dont know what to do and I dont have typical job interests like nursing, computers, clerical like some people and those are I guess in demand jobs plus I dont know if there are bused to go to school and I'm afraid if I get aid and register for school my car will die and then I wont be able to go and be heartbroken and have to pay back a loan after grant. PRAYERS THAT GOD TELLS ME WHAT TO DO AND I KNOW IT, HE PUSHES ME TOWARD SOMETHING BECAUSE I DONT KNOW AND AM ALSO AFRAID AND TIME IS TICKING WITH MY AGE AND SITUATION. IM SO TIRED OF THINGS BEING LIKE THIS FOR YEARS AND NO CHANGES, NO JOBS. TIRED OF PRAYING FOR SAME THINGS. IM GOING CRAZY LIVING LIKE THIS.

PRAYERS ALSO FOR SALVATION FOR MY KIDS, FAMILY AND HUSBAND AND INLAWS. MY FATHER IN LAW HAS BEEN NO HELP OR OFFERED HELP FOR MY KIDS, HIS GRANDKIDS ALSO AND HE SAYS HE IS SAVED. I COULD USE HELP WITH THEM AND MYSELF BUT NOW MUCH IF ANY FROM CHURCH EITHER OR ANY ENCOURAGEMENT FOR ME TO GO TO SCHOOL, PEOPLE TELL ME TO GET A JOB AT CHICK FILET MAKING MINIMUM WAGE IS WHAT PASTOR ADVISED. GOOD FOR NOW BUT NOT FUTURE.

Lord have your perfect will be done in this family's situation which is so massed up. Bring them all to salvation and find a way for this woman to be able to support herself and her mother without having to keep living in these conditions. It's not good to depend on someone who treats you this way, God help her and show her a way out so she and her mother can be a happy person. I pray in Jesus name, amen.