In short I'm a timid coward who breaks at the slightest pressure. I'm a nervous nelly and my overcompensating for it gets me in trouble. I used to be courageous. I have everything in my life going for me, and I don't think I've ever been lower (morally speaking). I need to get back on track, but I'm afraid of the hardship to get there.

Guest, i can relate. I have been asking the Lord for courage, as well as the love Jesus practiced while reaching out to others. Others say there is tough love, and that what makes others courageous to fight the good fight.
Father, forgive us when we were not godly and contented the time You were pouring Your grace on us. Please forgive us when we took for granted all the good and perfect gifts being sent us, and not being thankful instead. Help us, melt our hard headedness and lead us to Your feet again, for there is no other we can go to. Have mercy on others too when You said Be bold and strong, for the Lord Your God is with you. Thank You for hearing and grant us more and more love and courage as Your Spirit teaches and comforts us, to serve You in this life, amen.

Deliver us, God from our fears. For You said even if we sang the song of angels but have no love, or give up our bodies bu not love, what good is that. Teach us, help us to love, to have a sound mind. You also said what we do to the least of Your brothers we have done unto You. Oh, grant that the spirit of fear be banished and give us th spirit of love to endure, in Jesus' precious name.