First off, I went to school to become something. I sacrificed a lot of my time to complete my schooling. I made some plans that DEPENDED on being employed after this. I cannot move forward with my life without this job. Unfortunately, I cannot seem to get one. It has been over a year now, and nobody will hire me because I have no experience. My loans are due and in default, all of my credit cards are maxed out, and the bill collectors call all day. I have done everything to get hired, from writing personal letters, to going in to speak with the hiring managers. I have submitted over 1000 online applications.
Now due to this, I have been unable to put any effort into my fiance and my relationship. We are really trying to get through a tough spot involving cheating, and without being able to put any work into it, it is just falling apart. The fights are non stop, everything is an issue, there is NO trust AT ALL, there is NO compromise, there is resentment and hate and no forgiveness or compassion. Breakup is imminent, even though we both do not want to at all. We cannot set a date due to all of these problems, and now i have to wait even longer to get my finances back in order.
It is as if my entire life is ruined from this school. If I could just be hired, I could have normal work, I could continue my schooling, I could pay for relationship counseling, I could dedicate time to help fix things and not be worried about bills. I am stuck in a very bad place, and I am on the verge of just giving up. I don't want to have to just start over. I at least want to be together with my fiance.
So I am here to ask you to join me in prayer in my last attempt to fix my life. Ask the lord to restore my relationship. Pray that we can trust each other, forgive each other, and respect each other. Pray that no more lust or cheating or desire for someone else ever comes into the relationship. Ask the lord to help me find a job opportunity to continue my life. Pray that everything turns out OK, and good change happens immediately. Pray for a life restoring miracle. Pray for a sense or a sign that everything is going to be OK. I haven't had that in awhile, instead I am worrying all the time and wondering what I am going to do. Any time you spend praying will be greatly appreciated. You do not know how much this means to me.
I have asked for assistance in prayer before, and I promise you, god delivered a miracle. An actual miracle. He gave me what I asked for. I need the lords help again. Pray with me, and thank you all so much for what you do.
