Please God,
Help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My husband is the sourest person you've ever seen. He decided to up and leave his job, leaving our family unsupported. We don't have an income and he won't seek government assistance. My two little children are hard work, one has aspergers and the other one esteem issues. My little boy is getting bullied and the other one is having to stick up for him. When they come home, all they get is my angry husband micro-managing them.
I really dislike having him around the house ALLL DAY LONG because he makes me feel sick and sad and depressed with his constant anger and telling me off for every little thing. It is as though I am a piece of rubbish. Or maybe he thinks that is what he is? i now have super high blood pressure and I blame him. I am under a constant state of vigilance and I cannot take it any more. I am desperate! I never thought before that it would be better if I didn't live but it's so distressing, I don't know how long you are going to leave me in this situation, God?! I am begging you, begging you . PLEASE!!!!! God, why is this getting worse and worse? God, why did you let my son be autistic? It is destroying us. I do also think my husband is too. He is UNBEARABLE!!
PLease, please, please God. YOu are the maker of the universe. You are the only one who can fix all of this. Please, I have had just about enough. I don't want to die of sadness and grief!!! My horrible husband says now he wants to walk out on us and he has caused a great deal of this situation of me being depressed and can only do so much. Please God, I need a miracle. Right now! My son is scared that my unbaptised husband will go to hell. I am now wondering how God will help him because he needs help, badly. Please God, now is the time. Please don't leave me alone. I am so needing a friend. I have lost my confidence and friends as I've been trapped by my husband, by my depression and fear and now by the awfulness of autism. God, I am begging you. I am your daughter. Heal me. Heal us. Soon. Very soon. PLEASE!!!!!!!!!! Thanks God. xx Please send your strongest angels to send out all that is evil and wrong. Enough is enough!!!!!!!! Thanks