My family has been in crisis for almost twenty years. Three out of four of us have Lyme Disease. Long story short, my husband is no longer able to work and has been fighting for his disability benefits for over three years. I am already on a fixed disability income. Because of the lack of income, we have been living off our 401K which is about gone and we are no longer able to hold on to the house. We are three months into foreclosure, but still praying that my husband will go before a judge for his disability before we get "kicked out" of our home.
Also, my health has deteriorated so much in the last six months. On top of Lyme Disease and severe osteoporsis, I now have diastolic dysfunction (heart failure) and a racing heart, and on Christmas Eve was told I have emphysema. So today on Christmas, with no presents and no dinner, and my husband in the Hospital, it is just my son and I. I am trying not to let him see me so upset. I am so scared about the emphysema. I did it to myself and have only myself to blame. I am afraid about my life expectancy and my quality of life, let alone we are going to lose everything.
Throughout the years I have always seen God at work, even through the bad times and my husband would get frustrated with me because I seemed "too cheery" for all that we were going through. I just gave all the credit to God for giving me so much peace. After this emphysema diagnosis, my peace is all gone, and I feel so abandoned by God. I have been begging and pleading non stop for the Lord to give me a second chance. I am so scared. I know there is no cure and it only gets worse
Please pray for our health and we will be able to keep our home.
