(08-26-2010 10:45 PM)Guest Wrote: I really want God to bring a true Christian man into my life as a life mate .Please pray that it will be soon, so I won't have to spend Christmas alone again. It has been 4years this Christmas since my divorce, and I am ready to love and be loved again. Thank you, Lee
Hello Lee...This is Layna...just found this board this morning. If it is any consolation, 4 years is nothing in comparison to what I have been going through...I have never been married and am 58. I have wanted to be, all my life.
Two years ago, a man came to my website and joined it. He said he was led there by some dreams and that my name which is unusual was in his dreams.
We struck up an email friendship online and became inseparable.
He is Catholic and I am Christian. He became more Christian than Catholic during our communication online. He told me his wife had died, but, then, after God dealing with him about it, confessed to me a few weeks in, that he was in an abusive and loveless marriage of 20 years.
I told him it was either reconcile with her or divorce to be with me.
He filed for divorce...this happened in 2009.
In late August, she found his cell with my phone number and called me.
I could not lie, but thankfully, God spared me, I told her I knew him and he a was a member of my website. She only asked three questions and that is all she got, then she hung up. I warned him by email.
I heard nothing more and the decree was to come out in early October, he was to come up to Canada to make me his wife, in November. He is American.
Then, on the 2nd of November, my Dad in another province, went into hospital suddenly, the next evening died. I had decided to email him and let him know, becuz, he lost his Dad 10 years before, and loved him dearly; and to ask why I had not heard from him, since late August.
I sent two more emails on the 4th. On the morning of the 5th at 5 a.m. I was awakened by a text message...no divorce. reconciled. sorry about ur father. I emailed back but heard nothing.
He has remained a member of my website and has me still in his messenger. I never sent him any nude fotos of myself. We exchanged facial fotos when we were together before August of 09.
He sent me love sonnets and told me he loved me and never to leave him, when we were together online.
I have prayed, agonizingly, over this, and as much as I try to pray it away, it will not go. I feel him reaching out to me in the Spirit and I feel that he still loves me, as I do him.
So, I continue to pray, but I desperately need a husband...I do not think I have room in my heart for anyone but him now. When you have loved someone like this, you cannot love another. It's the first time in my life that I have really loved someone and had it reciprocated.
I would like to hear how things are with you Lee...and ur thots, as well as others.
I know that the man I care for, loves God and just wants to be loved, that's all...he told me that many times.
Blessings,
Layna.
Vancouver, Canada.
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