I dont know where to begin,the pain inside of me is so much. I have looked everywhere,I have asked everyone but forgot to consult with God.
There is a spiritual dryness in my life,a lack of motivation,I used to be a good christian man,I used to give offerings to the church,I used to feel a burning fire inside of me with excitment.I had a dream about 5 years ago,which I remember vividly like it was today.
Everything in that dream happened.Slowly I began to drift away from the body of christ.(the church)
There is an emptyness,a void in my life. I have lost thousands of dollars gambling,I am addicted to pornography,I am a homosexual.
It all came crashing down,my relationship with God,my finances,my morals and everything I thought I was and thought I had .pride began to build in my heart.
It has been close to a year that I took a separate road from God's ways due to my actions and my behavior.
I do not approve of my behavior nor do I like whom I have become.but deep inside I know who I am and know for a fact I cant change.
I have asked God in multiple ocassions to change my ways,to cleanse me from within.somehow I end up going back to my old ways.
honestly I am tired of everyday life,I am not tired of life,nor would I ever commit suicide. I am tired of the routine,there is no spark of joy inside of me
I find myself looking for friends,gay guys like myself that will understand me and will not judge me for the person that I am but they all want one thing.
The experience that I had last year brought bitterness and pain into my life,I met another " christian" homosexual guy.so I tought I could trust him;I ended up getting hurt and falling in love with him,I know this is wrong and I want to stop,I regret my past everyday of my life.
Sometimes I think this suffering is a curse or in a way a punishment for my previous actions,
I dont ask God to change the person that I am,but to keep me in his hands safe so that when the time of temptation comes I will not be overcomed by it.
I am scared of lossing my salvation,I have accepted Jesus as my savior and have been baptized.I go to church about 3 or 4 times a month,sometimes my busy work schedule keeps me from going.While i was browsing online tonight I thought Id ask for some prayer,so that I can once again be the man I was before
please keep me in your prayers ,so that I can re-establish my relationship with God .
Rebelious child of God
God bless and thank you!!

Jesus Christ, YOU Show us in the bible of those lives that are turned around, those that were terrible sinners, coming back to YOU. YOU ARE PLEASED when YOUR LOST sheep return to YOUR FLOCK.
Lord, help this man to forgive himself, to remove from any situations that enable this behavior he has allowed himself to be a part of,
heal his heart, his mind, his soul, his emotions Lord, that he is in correct alignment with YOU & YOUR LOVE & YOUR WAYS JESUS.
Point him in the direction where he has counselors & support for this type of healing, that he spend time each & every day asking for Holy Angels Protection, that all evil spirits remain away from him, for family tree healing, all of the protection Lord that is possible, that he realize this is his challenge, that he is in YOUR KINGDOM. Heal him Lord God, that he can speak of transformation in YOU. All of the old passes away, we are reunioned in YOU LORD. Let him walk with the armor of God, let his testimony be one where YOU DO FORGIVE LORD.
Help him Jesus to overcome these sins, the temptations, that he live a life that is always pleasing to YOU. Cast the devil aside, all of the evil spirits, put on the armor of God. Help him find supports Jesus that he overcomes, & then is a beacon Lord, to show others where Home is, Heaven.
Our healing is with Jesus & within, we are one in HIM.
JESUS is your best friend, only worry about pleasing HIM & you will be just fine.
God Bless you. Don't give up on yourself, on God. Let HIM Help you.
That is exactly what HE WANTS TO DO.

Guest Wrote:I dont know where to begin,the pain inside of me is so much. I have looked everywhere,I have asked everyone but forgot to consult with God.
There is a spiritual dryness in my life,a lack of motivation,I used to be a good christian man,I used to give offerings to the church,I used to feel a burning fire inside of me with excitment.I had a dream about 5 years ago,which I remember vividly like it was today.
Everything in that dream happened.Slowly I began to drift away from the body of christ.(the church)
There is an emptyness,a void in my life. I have lost thousands of dollars gambling,I am addicted to pornography,I am a homosexual.
It all came crashing down,my relationship with God,my finances,my morals and everything I thought I was and thought I had .pride began to build in my heart.
It has been close to a year that I took a separate road from God's ways due to my actions and my behavior.
I do not approve of my behavior nor do I like whom I have become.but deep inside I know who I am and know for a fact I cant change.
I have asked God in multiple ocassions to change my ways,to cleanse me from within.somehow I end up going back to my old ways.
honestly I am tired of everyday life,I am not tired of life,nor would I ever commit suicide. I am tired of the routine,there is no spark of joy inside of me
I find myself looking for friends,gay guys like myself that will understand me and will not judge me for the person that I am but they all want one thing.
The experience that I had last year brought bitterness and pain into my life,I met another " christian" homosexual guy.so I tought I could trust him;I ended up getting hurt and falling in love with him,I know this is wrong and I want to stop,I regret my past everyday of my life.
Sometimes I think this suffering is a curse or in a way a punishment for my previous actions,
I dont ask God to change the person that I am,but to keep me in his hands safe so that when the time of temptation comes I will not be overcomed by it.
I am scared of lossing my salvation,I have accepted Jesus as my savior and have been baptized.I go to church about 3 or 4 times a month,sometimes my busy work schedule keeps me from going.While i was browsing online tonight I thought Id ask for some prayer,so that I can once again be the man I was before
please keep me in your prayers ,so that I can re-establish my relationship with God .
Rebelious child of God
God bless and thank you!!

In Jesus Name i command that all powers of darkness and curses to leave this man and their home ! Now !
I pray that Lord's will be done in their life. Amen