Thank you for your prayers. Please also send up a prayer for my marriage. This has taken such a toll on it as well. I am praying to hold on a little while longer. I know that God answers prayers. I need him so much right now. I feel like I just can't take anything else. I feel like Job right now.
I feel it is better that God takes me home than allow me to continue to suffer this way.
I have been through so much already in my 45 years on this earth. I wrote a book in 2004 called, "Come Walk In My Lost Shoes", about all the hell on earth that I have gone through. My life has been so hard. I am feeling so much pain in my heart right now! I have never given up. Even after being beaten, raped, and abandoned, I still keep going on trusting God to help me. I don't know how much more I can take. I work daily in the ministry. I tell others of His love and to keep going. But, I need strength to keep going myself. All I know to do is pray and cry.