I learned I have a painful bladder disorder back in March. Along with that comes awful migraines, IBS (irritable bowel), painful joints and chronic tiredness.

It always seems like I am always sick and missing out on being with my family. I'm a homeschooling wife & mom of 3.

I am so tired of not being there for them. I have missing visiting my inlaws week after week, I've missing shopping trips and even yesterday I missed a trip to see Santa.

I am so tired of feeling like I let my family down and not being there for them. I feel like my husband gets mad when I am sick yet again. My kids get upset because mommy can't come some where with them.

Please pray for understanding from my husband. He was mad at me this morning for missing out on another trip to his parents house. Pray for my kids to understand I love them and I hate being stuck at home in bed when I should be with them. Pray for healing.

I want so much to be the wife and mom God wants me to be and sometimes I feel they'd be better off without me. ; (

Ashley