Father I apprecaite adoring 1's understanding of your truth and as I have been in her shoes yes forgiveness is seams is hard to overcome because of the guilt of letting the Father down, but you see when you develop that loving relationship with the father thru his son you will truly understand his compassion and love for us, he does forgive and let go of any wrong doing, and yes you feel shame from your parents but our they not made from the same Father in Heaven is there love for you any different. Yes this is scarey for you right know, we have been taught we need to be perfect in the world our wholes lives by man but without mistakes would we really need Jesus or his Father, would we ever learn thir undying love for us, how true forgiveness from inside sets us free and the heart becomes on fire for him. one forgive yourself thru Jesus' love, ask Pia's parents for forgiveness and the ex-husband (your need to extend this if they chose not do and hold angre towards you where is there hearts), mistakes are made everyday in life so take it to the Jesus's feet and ask him to take it to his father, God can restore your hearts if you just turn to him ask his perfect will into your life. I want you to know you started in the right direction please don't turn back, only go forward in him in the years to come if your in his word happiness will come and you all will heal from this. Trust in God. I do I've been where your at, healing will begin and may I say I understand what she see's in you, you have a good heart, go forward not backwards looking over your shoulder Jesus is the healer it is written, Trust him. A loving friend. Amen