My dear sister, you are allowing the enemy to play one of his repetitive tricks on you. His imps whisper you are not worthy and you accept the message. You are the child of a King and are worthy of all that the grace of God can bring. You are worthy because Christ said you were when he died on the cross for you and for me and for all of the world. He gave his life so that you and I might live and live more abundantly.

Your husband is living life within the boundaries of his past. His behavior sounds like that of one that has experienced great trauma perhaps from this father's abuse in early life and he is dealing with it still. Post traumatic Stress Disorder is a very real illness...and can be as debilitating as any other. Get up my sister and encourage him. We as women have more influence with our men than we sometimes think we do. But telling him all that is wrong with him and his behavior is not the way to use it...as a matter of fact it will repel him. Sweetness and love will draw him and help him to grow and succeed rather than fail.

In your circumstances it might be wise to seek sound Christian counseling from a professional who can help the two of you to sort things out. There are many Christian therapists that can help. If either of you is employed and have insurance it would be worth the effort to seek help. Your sobriety is the most important thing that you can focus on now...get some support... stay sober. The Lord cannot help if you allow yourself to fall into the fog of chemical dependence...you will not be able to hear him...get up and get busy with his help in reclaiming your life from the evil one.

Father, please in your mercy touch this woman and remind her who and whose she is. Bring her to the point that she stops blaming her husband, his father and others for her circumstances. Let her take responsibility for her own choices and seek help for her depression. Ease her burdens enough that she can think clearly and give her the will to fight for a better life with your Spiritual weapons. Lead her to a good Christian therapist that will use your word to help her to heal. Let her find a scripture each day to meditate on. One that comes to mind is "by His Stripes we are healed." Your word + our faith =Our healing. Bring her peace Father that she might be victorious over the enemy. In Jesus name...Amen!