well the last few days i have been still making mistakes at work so continue to pray for my job. i am afraid to pay bills as dont know what will happen. pray for me it is the weekend. and nothing to do and noone to hang with again. this loneliness is hurting me again. i saw my son last night. he is not mad at me for what happened just angry that he had a bad childhood because of his dad. he does not blame me, blames his dad. we talked he loves me. the night b4 i made him peanut butter cookies his favorite, and he said he was hoping i would make him them as he remembers me cooking with him to make them. he missse his sister and me but not his dad. i tried to talk nice about tim to him but he botherd him. he wants to still be in my life but at a distant still as he has so much going on now. i love him and i am proud of him. pray for me to get my family back with me. and for me to not make mistakes at work today. yesterday more staples and a green sheet in claims. pray that i can find a better job, more christian friends or friends in genral and the weekends wont be so lonely for me. another of tim's friends died from a drug over dose again at age 44.????? in jesus preciouas name i pray amen