Mornings are hard for me. i get up and cry. please pray for me still. i made big mistakes yesterday at work. leaving staples in claims. they are not happy with that. pray that i stop making mistakes. i talked to my son for a little bit yesterday. i miss him. and his sister deeply. i am sorry if i am causing rift on this site. i am hurting deeply. i dont know where to turn. i miss tim so much. i still blame myself for the fights and my kids being gone. all i wanted was to be a mother, lover and best friend to someone and this happened. i will be 50 in march and lonely, depressed and trying to save my life. pray for me to stop making mistakes, to keep my job, house and car, and for complete reunification of my family including timothy, richard, rachel and paula. i had 20 years with timothy and just recently he had the new g/f please pray to remove her from his life and he comes back to me. i miss my family so much. my heart is breaking. continue to please please please pray for my job and restoration of my family.