I want to thank you all for you continued prayers. I write on here not only for prayers but it helps me to write my thoughts out as well. It seems when I am not praying myself about this I am thinking about it as it has taken over my mind an my life. I thank you all for your prayers though it seems there might be some confusion. We are not married. He is divorced and has two girls. Overthe two years we dated I accepted the girls in as if they were my own and did everything I could to try to give him and his girls a wonderful happy life. Even now I find myself picking out outfits and new toys for them. While we stay in contact and have even seen each other a couple times I still don't know what to male of it all. I pray and pray and pray and God answers and he will reach out to me in some way. I know my prayers are heard so I am greatful for that. I continue to pray in Jesus name that you would give me the patience and strength to go through all this. I pray that you take any jealousy that creeps into my kind away. It creeps in and destroys my heart and mind. In Jesus name I pray that you give Ben the guidance to find his love me and to realize how much I meanto him and the girls. Give him the strength to be able to put any pride aside and to just reach out to me to tell me his true feelings. Have him find it in him to accept his love for me. Help him to realize that this "single life," isn't what he wants. I pray that he realizes that he needs to keep he and his girls beat interest at heart and find stability not only for them but for himself. Help him to realize my love for the three of them and help him to realize there aren't many people that will step in to his situation. Help him to realize hoe important to him and the girls I am. Lord I pray that Ben cam find his love for me again and accept it. Lord don't let him ignore all these emotions anymore. Father help him to realize that sometimes weaken and you take the other for granted bit it doesn't mean that all is lost and you have to give up. Lord help him to realize how much I love him still and how much he loves me as well. Lord touch his heart and help him to realize that it isn't time to give up on is yet. Give him the strength to be able to accept that and to reach out to me to let me know he feels the same and wants to date me again. Lord help him to realize how much I mean to him and have him take the steps to work on us again. Lord with all this I pray that you give me the patience to realize you are working on this and the strength to getout of bed and be the person he fell in love with. Lord help him and guide him to find his love for me. I know it's in him still and I just pray you help him accept his love for me and our life and take the steps to reach out and reconcile. In Jesus name I pray all these things. Amen.