Dear Paula. Adoring1 is right. Please know she speaks in LOVE. Right now, you need to focus on God and not Tim. Let God work in YOU, change YOU and be what you need. I know it is hard but one day at a time. Let God work in the life of Tim. If God wants you back together, he would not want to put you back together unchanged because that did not work the last time and it would not work this time. So let Tim go, let God in and start the hard work on changing you, and you will be amazed. I tell you God does not want this for you. He is a God who wants to bless and adore you, he wants so much for you, and yes, he wants more for Tim but unless you start to walk with God and leave Tim alone, it is not going to happen :(. I feel your pain, dont get me wrong, but until you work on you, nothing is going to change and that is a fact. God will honour you and will reward you for what has been stolen but only if you get real with him. We all love you Paula, know that. AMEN.