Lord I have lost all hope, I have made bad choices and continue to feel that things are worse off if I stop trying, I ask that you please have me in your prayers and thoughts and give me the strength and means not to lose hope but to pull us from the hell that my poor decisions have placed me in. Please forgive me for I know I am wrong in many ways and I ask for forgiveness for my sins and just know that I need a chance to change and I know I am asking a lot right now and may not be deserving of my wishes but I promise through you and this gift I will be righteous and giving and self sufficient all I ask is the means and strength to accept the gift, I know you have the power to make the ball roll into our direction and save us from my mistakes.