I am praying for you right now. Lean on God. He is with you. He will protect you and guide you. No matter what happens trust that God sees the whole picture. This was not your fault. God will never give you anything to big you can't handle. I'm sure that its extremely hard right now...but remember isaih 41:10 "do not fear I i am with you. Do not be afraid for I am your God. I will strengthen you and I will help you. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." stay strong!