Dear Sweet Girl! This Grandma is absolutely right. You don't want to let your loneliness and your misery cause you to get involved with just anyone. It sounds to me like these people were not worthy to be your friends. A friend is someone who really knows you and yet likes and accepts you through it all. They may not always agree with you but you know they care about your welfare. It sounds to me like the Lord is giving you the wisdom and discernment to see through these phonies and to see what they really are. That is great because it can help you avoid costly mistakes in relationships. I also urge you to find a good church that has a good young people's group but remember, people can be phonies even in churches. I pray that the Lord will bring you one or two real good girl friends that you can have fun with and that are not into backstabbing. When I was in high school I had two best friends and that's how I survived because I was also pretty and men wanted to use me but the Lord warned me about it so I had a lot of fun with my friends and we are still friends to this day. I didn't date a lot and now I'm so glad I didn't because there is so much time for that when you are older and have more wisdom about different situations. Study, try to go to college. Your degree is one of the best things you can do for yourself. It is your insurance policy that you won't have to be abused verbally or physically because you will be able to support yourself and not depend on some man to do it. Some day God will bring you a special someone if that is His will for you but be careful! We are living in the last days before the coming of Yeshua and things are going to get a lot worse. God bless you and you stop feeling bad. God will answer your prayers when you cry to Him. Yeshua cares for you more than you can ever know and He will protect you if you will let Him. One who knows from experience.