Dear Guest, the cycle of depression can be broken, and there are doctors who can help you. Go online and find a Christian counseling service near you or call an emergency line. I think Dr. Dobsons focus on the family has an 1800- free counseling service. Do not stop praying, and listen to praise music and remember all God has done for you so far. He will guide you to the right counselors. He knows you are in the valley of shadows, but He is with you. He has been there. We will pray for you to see the bright day and give glory to God Almighty. Singing praises is very important. Get a classic Hymnal and keep it by you. Just read the lyrics or go online and listen to classic hymns for free. Praise is the key to open the door, and finding the right counselor. Sometimes it is nice just to talk to someone. God Bless you!