Paula don't let yourself be fooled by your x anymore, pray for his salvation, but don't trust him with your life. God can send someone new your way , but first you have to get healed from your past and learn to respect yourself. Put Tim out of your life, since the kids are not with you, he doesn't even have to come near you, as long as he does you won't be able to heal and forget him. I tell you this as a friend and sister in Christ, and because I know how you are feeling, but remember grater is God than the enemy or Tim. You know it doesn't matter how old your house is. Some of those houses are so beautiful and better made than the newer houses, and can look better with a little inexpensive cosmetic and uncluttered. I've seen some that are gorgeous, plus you have a roof over your head that you can make beautiful with all the time you have on your hands, by doing so you are showing God you are a grateful child. Do some decorations like making some curtains, paint some rooms, clean the windows, and clean up what you call junk by throwing out what you don't need. Have Tim get his stuff out so you won't be seeing it and getting more depress. Now that's summer airout the house and enjoy what you have there. You know there are so many people that don't even have where to lay their head at night. These are some of the blessings you can start counting and enjoying Paula.
Lord please take that depression away from Paula and continue to help and protect her. Send some good believer her way to befriend her and lift her in prayers as we are doing here, but she needs good people in her life Lord, also supply for all her needs. Let her see she can busy herself on the weekends doing these things and listening to some good uplifting music instead of letting herself get depressed. I pray in Jesus name, amen.