Paula, because we love God we love you and we will continue praying for your spirit to lift, but you too must do your part. I know isolation, sadness, depression even and all their relatives can feel very lonely, hurtful, seemingly rejectful and things alike. I KNOW IT. But through all that pain, we MUST encourage ourselves as David had to in 1 Samuel 30. We must. We have to find that God-highlit way to encourage our own selves in God; for that is where we find strength, a will and determination to go on.
Begin to dwell on the positive things in life and confess those things, abilities, faculties before your God. Begin to praise your Creator God for the manifested things that you DO have in operation in your life right now. Again, we will water you, and offer you SONlight, but the breaking the dirt is something you have to do. I share with you an excerpt from an email devotional I received this morning.
"Around the world, many people feel alone—isolated in some way, not because of anything they have done but rather as a consequence of events taking place around them. Our Lord also experienced these feelings and knew the pain of related misunderstanding. But Jesus also knew the Father in such depth and trusted Him with such conviction, those painful circumstances paled in comparison. He was faithful in consistent stewardship of each day, knowing “I am not alone because the Father is with me.” John 16:31-33
Dignity derives from being faithful and faithfulness comes with conviction that the Lord is also faithful; he conveys peace to “out-shout” trials of loneliness and isolation. Wavering in confidence toward the Lord—that He will never leave or forsake us, is precisely the temptation resulting when pressures mount and contradictions come. When I waver, I stop short of the highest mark of what I claim to have heard from the Lord – faith comes by hearing, and hearing is also the way fear comes—by hearing. So don’t panic...
You are not alone! Do not fear for your future; fear—not the future, and not your situation—is the troubler of those now facing life-altering possibilities as the whole world shifts geopolitically. In the shift, everything will be shaken; and in the shaking, wrong things tolerated will become more emboldened so your choosing must be truth—no matter what, or you will experience the dominance of something God never intended.
No matter what, commit to maintain your dignity in God. Head up, shoulders straight, think clearly – one day at a time! Consider that the Lord has you where you are for His purpose or He has allowed your circumstance to change your purpose. Either way, patiently allow Him to marry the two, His and yours; and be thankful—there is always a fourth man in the furnace! Hebrews 12:26-27 Daniel 3:24-28
Love you girl, now come on - let US get it together. You are not alone!

Amen.