I had a very bad night. I called my son and at first he said to come meet him then canceled. then at work i found out a department is getting rid of what is called medicare. and then i called Tim to talk to him he was mad and then, i found out he may or may not have a g/f and said to leave him alone. then i told him to move his things out of the house especially the things outside or i will throw them out. he is using me. i tell him daily i love him and want him back. how he has moved on and basically tod me his feelings. he was the one who came back to me after the divorce, no physically relationship only emotional. he called he was there not me. now i fell deep for him again and he does not want me. i am so hurt i cried myself to sleep and tried to find a therapist but nothing that will just take me i have no money. also i am not really sleeping and not eatting pray for me. dont do antying but get up go to work come home complain to those that want to listen. i hate my life it is very crappy noone talks to me at work. and when i do try to talk to someone my boss is always there behind myt back watching me. God please place the hedge ot thorns on tim's relationship and remove her from his life and have him come back to me. in jesus precious name i pray amen