I am having a lot of difficulty with a leader in my church. I let fear get the best of me and addressed some concerns about him in the wrong way. Now that leader is (I feel) attacking me with an unrelated issue. Not only is the issue unrelated, but it was by someone who said one thing to me and something completely different to this leader (who happens to be her husband) There are lies or some kind of manipulation involved on one of these people's part with the intention to attack me because I said something that offended the leader. I want to leave the church and just started going there a few months ago. My hearts desire is to reach out, to love, to worship God. Did I make a mistake in how I handled some concerns? yes and I apologized to everyone for my gossip, but now my reputation is being attacked simply because someone feels like I attacked theirs. I was not intending to attack their reputation, I was just uncomfortable with some things that were happening and I was too scared to talk to the leader because of his attitude. I am experiencing a lot of chaos and it's sapping my strength. In my opinion a leader is suppose to lead in the right direction. Not kick up dirt at the wrong time to make someone else look bad simply because he is offended. I admitted my own wrong doing but this guy doesn't seem to be doing the same. The easy thing to do is leave but ultimately I want God's will to be done... but I also want to go to a church where my spiritual needs are being met. I feel attacked and it's making me feel bad about myself and I don't know how my pastor is looking at me because he is seemingly supporting this other leader. I really don't know what to do. Please pray for guidance. I forgive everyone in my heart, but I want to get away from all the conflict.