I will pray for you but first i think you need to stop being so hard on your self. You have a mental health disorder and it isn't easy to deal with issues of this kind. ( i too have suffered and still do). Your husband should be understanding and help support you and not judge you for it. Everybody goes through selfish times its a human trait. With the correct help it can easily be controlled.

In the name of jesus christ our saviour we pray lord that you look down and hear your child's cry's, Give her the love and guidence in her life that she need's, Show her the love and support that only you can. thank you lord, Amen.