I am doing much better with life these days and I am not believing that life is better off with me not around. Mourning my dad even though he isn't dead was hard. I loved Kevin and lost him recently. But I love him so very much. I ask that you pray that we can at least talk and that I not lose another person I loved with all my heart. I am jobless, but I'm not doing so bad emotionally anymore. But my heart is broken so much. Thank you for all your prayers. Please pray he can forgive me and I can forgive him. And let him know how much I love him. I have been reading my bible everyday now and will start going to church on Sunday. Wishing he could go with me. I messed up the best thing I ever had. Thank you