I've never done anything like this before. There's a lot going on right now. Feels like a wave just crashing on me.

I've been in a relationship with my boyfriend for over 2 years and about 8 months. It was love, or so I thought. I'm not in high school -- i'm a recent college graduate. He was it. The one I thought. I'm always the type to make plans -- I want to plan on marriage. I always said that if he were to ask today -- I would say yes. No thought or question. He was it. THe one God wanted me to be with. That through the trials and triumph, we made it through.

We're going to start jobs at the same company, live in the same city, live in the same apartment complex.

This is hard. We talked the other day, I told him that I am in no way rushing or forcing a marriage, but I want to have thatwith him and that if he ever feels like he can't with me then he needs to let me know.

He let me know a day later. That 'maybe we shouldn't be in a relationship'.

My world is crumbling, I need your prayers. Please pray for God to give me strength during this time -- for him to take away the tears and sorrow and feeling of pure weakness.

Pray for Him to be with my boyfriend, Michael F. May He comfort him and help him to understand the nature of his words to me, and what they mean for the future. May God help Michael, for lack of a better way of saying it, come to terms with what he truly wants and needs. Does he want me today and forever.

Above all, I pray in my Lord God, Jesus Christ to always have His way and His plans for myself and Michael. That whatever may come -- will ALWAYS be in HIs way and His want. I never want to live a life that goes against or away from His want for my life.