No no no no.You do not deserve to be treated with disrespect nor to have a low self esteem.Do you not know who you are once you accept Christ.It is a filthy lie of the enemy and he is fighting for control of your mind.Beloved Jesus said in his word that he wishes above all that we prosper.Are you going to allow this filth of a devil to keep you down.Sister we can pray but you have to kick him where he no longer makes you feel worthless.Stay in the word, memorize the word sing to GOD.Get up you are a princess of the MIGHTY GOD.We do not hold pity parties nor do we allow the evil one to dictate our feelings.God is good and he wants the best for us.Reach out and take it,it is yours.We all make mistakes accept it and determine not to make the same one.Sing to the Lord!!!Lord open Paula's eyes to who she is in you.In Jesus name we pray.