Please pray for me to find help and peace. here is my back story.
I have moved with my family every 3-5 years because of my dad's job and every time we moved i would get more bitter and more angry because of all the friends i made i would never see again. So finally i gave up on finding friends and i seriously have 0 friends. I went to church and prayed and had faith and GOD has answered my prayers but lately i just don't feel him present in my life. I quit a great job because i just didn't want to deal with their BS (sorry but its true) at least at time thats what i thought later on i knew i was wrong to do that. i was out of a job for a year and half before i could find something else. No one, not even my family knows that. i have been struggling with faith lately and i did it again i might of self-sabatoshed a great job i have. I do not know for sure but i don't know why i keep doing these things. I have prayed for help and i want to be a better man for myself for my family and for GOD but ever time i turn around it seems like i am screwing up my life some how and some way. please pray for me because i feel like i am breaking down in my life and i have no one to turn to. i am crying and i feel like no one can hear my pain. i have depression and axiety and i just want to be a better man. why can't i let go and let GOD be in control of my life!?