I just found this forum and read a few posts .. prayed a few prayers..

My situation is.. I have failed in the past by not being patient and waiting GOd's lead.. I have struggled .. but God never turned me away.. I finally am working a great job.. so financially Im not doing great but I am blessed with a job that I love and making enough to live life.. My prayer request is for ... My lonileness in heart.. I have always had a heart filled with love wanting a companion to share this love with.. in my past I wasnt patient enough to wait for God's lead and I chose wrong ones.. Recently a friend of mine for 3 years .. even tho I had feelings from the start .. for her .. I was hard hearted due to my past mistakes .. but recently I took a chance and opened my heart which was very hard to do .. Yet My prayer is to not be selfish in my wanting her but that God see fit to give me strength to take whatever comes of this.. I dont want to lose her as a friend.. yet I have fallen in Love with her and know not what to do .. I know that I cant put her before GOd.. and I know that praying that God make her mine is not the right thing to do .. instead I pray that God Blesses her with the best and only hope one day I will be the best for someone.. I can now kind of understand what Adam must have felt in the garden of eden alone ... I dont know what to do ... in the past I filled my lonileness with unclean things and I dont want that .. I want God's blessing and true love.. a love like mine