I have messed up so bad I dont know how I am going to get out of this. My husband barely talks to me...we are in a huge finacial mess that is all my fault...there is even more than he knows. My life started falling apart two years ago when he started having an affair...there have been multiple since but the financial mess is all on me....please someone pray that God can fix this mess. I just want to walk into the kitchen and take every pill in there. Ending it all seems so easy but I just cant hurt my mother that way and I dont want to go to Hell. Please pray for me...I feel so far away from God I just dont know what to do anymore....my life is falling apart 1 second at a time.