Yes Paula you have a lot to do, use this weekend to read the bible and pray. This bring you closer to God and bring you peace of mind. Learn from Him and make him your all and He will give you the desires of your heart. Start reading the book Psalms, they can bring you lots of comfort as you use them as a prayer when you are too overwhelmed to pray yourself. Try it, it can't hurt you, but bring you peace, makes you stronger and your burdens lighter as you give it all to Him.
Lord help Paula to get closer to you and through this weekend. Take away all her fears, loneliness, and depression as she uses this time to reads your word and pray. I pray this in Jesus name, amen