Alcohol is something that has such a strong grip on so many people and completely changes how they interact with people and conduct themselves, yet isn't as reviled as 'harder' drugs because it is legal and socially acceptable. It is something that only God can combat and I know from personal experience it is very difficult to quit but it CAN be done. You know that its wrong and are taking the proper precautions by praying and asking for help. Pray that God gives you the deliverance you seek and He will hear your prayer. God bless you