I can't even go to bed I get so scared and worrisome of life. I am scared to wake up with some new that someone is dead, a tragedy occured, the world is coming to an end, or etc. I am just now getting back into church but have had hardly any motivation to go back to school or get a job. I'm scared to enjoy even little things in life... going out to eat, dressing up, being a girl and taking pictures, being careful of what I watch or listen to, and more. I just want to honor God and enjoy life. I get scared when I hear plane sounds thinking they are meteors, I have bad dreams sometimes, if I get an itch on my body I freak out thinking I have a disease, and when I'm lonely I get suicidal sometimes. I just feel so miserable to my core and need to be rescued by God. This is no way to life, and I try to cast all my worries on God as he commands. Please pray for God to give me happiness in life and to take away my lifelong struggle with depression and anxiety. To give me motivation to move forward and make something out of my life.