God does not make us believe, it is an act of our free will and faith. Sometimes we must make the decision with our mind and our heart will follow. Talk to Him and tell him how you feel. Ask him to make himself known to you through others and His word. You are at the seeking stage. Seek and you will find, knock and it will be opened. Faith is the substance of things hoped, for the evidence of things unseen. Some plant, some water, but God provides the growth. It appears to me that God is drawing you to himself. He loves you more than you or me will ever understand. Check out on the internet by clicking on; do you want to know God personally. Read and see if you feel lead to ask Jesus into your heart. Acknowledge him for who He is, recognize that we are all sinners and confess your sins to him. The bible says that if we confess our sins then he is faithful and just to forgive our sins. He casts them as far as the east is from the west. He casts them into the sea of forgetfulness. Take care and may God bless you as you search and seek the truth about Him,