Jesus loves you and there is purpose for everything through him. Even though the pain is unbearable right now, it will pass. She might now be the women God intended you to be with. Whenever you are feeling depressed and weak get down on your knees and pray for God's comfort. He will always be there for you. I pray that you make it through this and become a stronger person because of this. You are loved and God's love is more powerful then any human love. God Bless!