I made a commitment to God about 6 months ago to do my best to follow him to the best of my ability no matter what. Since that day my business has tanked, dont have the right skills/degrees to find something better and even getting a job is tough when you cant afford to go back and forth, all my so called friends have gone, I am homeless, slept in my vehicle cant tell you how many times, even that is up for repo now, my health has gotten horribly bad, lost nearly 70 lbs from lack of food/nutrition (wasnt overweight to begin with but now look like an aids vitim) Need to see a doctor badly because of stomach problems and dentist because of absessed tooth I have been fighting. Literally God has taken/allowed everything from me (never cared much about material) since that commitment. I have tried and tried to keep trusting Him and keep my faith, but it seems that daily things get worse and worse and everything I touch turns to garbage and everything I try ends in failure. I have trusted God from the depths of my heart and have always believed he would turn things around, but starting to feel like I am not one of his chosen and/or being punished for making that commitment. I truly hate praying for money, I feel like one of those people we all know that only calls when they want something, but find myself asking God for His help but shortly after something else shows up and brings more disaster. I am quickly losing all hope/faith and truly dont know what to do, ask, or pray anymore.