I just turned 30, and I feel this uncontrollable urge to find a wife. I want to settle down and raise a family. It's unexplainable, this urge inside of me. Only problem is, I'm painfully shy around women; I mean I can barely make eye contact I'm so nervous. I tryed online dating, and the first time a woman tried to make contact with me, I started having breathing problems and a mild panic attack; and this wasn't even a face to face encounter. Though I've come a long way since then, I am deathly afraid that I'll never be able to even get the ball rolling in a relationship, let alone find a wife. Yet, I have such strong urges (not just lust, but love) for a wife, that I can hardly concentrate anymore. Pray that God would lead me to my future wife. Pray that we will both instinctively know.