It has been 3 years since I last did it. I made someone a promise that I wouldn't do it again, but he broke a promise to me, too. I tried to stop myself and see a hedge of God's protection around me. It wasn't high enough. I am weak, and I am alone. I have lost the life I had. I have nothing to live for, but I believe I can't get into heaven if I kill myself. Cutting makes something else hurt more than the pain I can't control. I don't want to keep doing it, but it makes me feel better. I pray that God will help me, heal my heart, and make the pain stop. Please be with me God; I don't feel your presence at all.